I am so scared of having a third kid. Not for the amount of work, but if it will be healthy. Before Nick I never thought of such things. I just asumed all my kids would be healthy. But now it is a differnet story. What if he has sp or something worse. What if the baby does not make it? What if he/she dies soon after. How would I handle this....
I am sick of everyone saying how strong I am handling everything with Nick. I am not. There are more amazing mothers out there, with kids that have not made it or are sicker then my boy.
Maybe I don't give myself enough credit. I am just so sad for all those kids that don't make it.